MaliciousCity

what were you thinking when i flipped myself inside out? what were you doing when i poured my heart out, i let the trickling take me and my matter away. I wanted to see love, but i just don’t feel it. I’m leaving…i’m moving away. i think the world of you, i wanted the world for you, maybe even us. I saw something that i finally wanted. and you took that delusion and made me see the truth. i guess i should thank you. but i’m sad, i don’t want to keep walking forward, then i know its done. maybe when i’m gone, and when you’re alone, you’ll remember me and feel like a fucking asshole for letting me leave. 

welcome back mel, we’ve lost some time…damn

i love how i make promises to myself…aka i will move to cali in the summer…then it turns into, i actually met someone really nice. i’m enjoying life, i love the house i live in, i do think its haunted but…life is pretty nice. Lets see where it goes :)

here we go, theres no control…the wisdom never did reach the old

don’t act so surprised to see that everyday you were killing me.

i could laugh and i can pretend that you and i are still just friends

But we know when chose to sink into the deep

no going back, no downward spirl no nostalgia i’m past all that

just keep knowing, that my minds a flowing

life is no cup of tea, instead its a beast lingering

stomp through the wild and through trees, i walk the night in cool calm breeze

this is nothing for me. 

like cattle to the herd, i’m king of the seven seas

i’ll build my castle and stand on my pride

We were so close but now we hide

all i want was this right to have

to love and connect on this color slide.

i can go on, i can breath

but the thought of not knowing where you’ll be?

i’ll worry for me. i’ll pick up and just keep going

She’s out there…out there for me, i just have to find her when she’s ready to be.

privatedeets:

has become my newest music addiction. 

I just downloaded them!! I needed something new…i hope i enjoy it <3

privatedeets:

I’m through with people who claim to be there as my ally in this life, fuck it, worlds full of faces I’ve yet to meet.

i’m always on your side kid

The night sky rolls in, like dust floating and settling onto the ground, it lightly comes back to the ground. The eleghant swirls of purple’s and blues…all deepening the sky. The infinite glow of stars. 

You’ve got me…a stronghold and fortress protecting and cuddling me to your bosom..safe and sound. Let the night come, and as soon as it does…this bright clear confident me arises! Ready to take this world! ready to embrace all the night demons and fly with them.

All the juice produced, floats to canvas, words to paper.

Its all so clear…I could glide amongst the night clouds forever, the sweet air filling my lungs, the wind blowing through my hair, my eyes sharp like a hawk. Don’t let me falter, hold me up and land me safely on to the roofs of city buildings where the their false lights reflect into my eyes. Its so calm…perfectly serene.

but soon as the night comes to end, my seed deceases and crawls me to bed. until the next night, i yearn to wait…for the night to come and birth me again!

today is gonna count, and actually yesterday did too. Even though time and some how time again, i fall back down. But best be known, it is when we stand again that we are our strongest. I’m gonna be back up and stay this time! and only gain that much more ;)